Effort...Emotions...Egress^

^e·gress  [n. ee-gres; v. ih-gres] 

1. the act or an instance of going, especially from an enclosed place.

2.  a means or place of going out; an exit.

3.  the right or permission to go out.

4.  Astronomy.emersion ( def. 1 ) . 

 Right now, I am trying too hard.  My writing sounds trite and hollow; that bothers me.  When I use force to accomplish something the result is always the same.

An example from my daily life. 

This morning I told my husband  I wanted to go on a bike ride.  Once I made that statement, he was ready, even though I was  only was thinking out loud. In the end the force I was using to keep with that external schedule was counter intuitive to the big picture.  

To minimize force and gain without strain.  

Now I am home writing and he is riding.  Had I gone I would have been complaining the whole time. I am feeling guilty but part of the Baniel work today was to minimize emotions. 

Subtlety is a form of awareness used to hone instincts; our intuition.  When I am working during the school year, I feel pressed along, engulfed by others agendas and emotions.  I am unable to distinguish my feelings let alone the nuances in my movement.

Never has there been a better time to start practicing this sort of letting go of effort in both my emotions and my actions.  All or nothing is a way of thinking that is holding me back.

Today I will work on tempering this skill, while working on my movement.

I might even go out into the world...